I'll start off saying that I am sorry to all those I may have offended, upset, and/or flamed on by me. I know I have made several enemies on this forum, and not too many like me much anymore.

I'm especially sorry for the flaming on b1and imparticular. I hadn't realized he had been on the forums for 5 years seeing how he acted the way he did. Any flaming on me for the flaming I gave him was deserved.

well I guess it's story time then. ( as to my hating 'tude toward so many people)

Towards the end of my Senior year all the way to the beginning of summer I have been going through alot. I think we all know that after graduation you lose many many friends, however you still try to hang out as much as you can 'till you as well as they, part for college.

Well I would not have any time with friends, instead, I was told that I was moving to my grandparents for the entirety of summer to work for them b/c thier business is about to fall due to lack of workers. Naturally I was very upset about this because:

1.) It's 2 hours away from civilization

2.) I dont know anyone or where anything is in the town

3.) its the exact opposite of my lifestyle. I'm from the city. They live in the country. DFW is huge and you can always find something to do with someone. Gatesville is one town, with a main street, tons of country and got old REAL fast.

Part-reason for my "deportation" was due to the fact my family had not liked the way i had been acting.

As a little boy, my mom and dad had always fought over me(divorced when I was less that 1 year old), however my mom fought dirty. Told me how my dad was a loser who would never be anything but a bad father. And the slowly started to gain full possession of me. Finally I hit the age when I realized it was the exact opposite as she had been saying. My dad was the best thing in the world, and my mom won me over with material possessions, not love.

When I figured this out I told my mom I wanted to start visiting my dad more. She agreed, for a while, then started to try to pull me back by flaming on him. Her plan backfired since my eyes were now open, I told my dad this and he said it was ok. when i became 13, I told both mom and dad that I wanted to get a court order to live with my dad. (after I told my mom I wanted to see my dad more, she started to dislike me. say she had a headache when I tried talking to her, and had a new "favorite" child which was my stepbrother).

The trial went the way I wanted and so I was able to live with my dad but, had to visit my mom every other weekend. This went on for 3 years, my mom growing more and more distant. We argued more often and it seemed every time I left her house I was full of hate. This transfered onto my dad and after a few years of it even my father started growing distant.

 Finally I called it quits going to my moms after a huge flaming from her at the front door (bag of clothes still in hand) for no reason what- so-ever (unprovoked) so I told her to "have a merry effin christmas" and drove back to my dads. (that was last christmas) I havent seen her since graduation.

due to the years of fights and flames I have become a very negative person. I am trying to get better at it (started this summer)

Today will be the first day I go back to my dads house, I'm crossing my fingers it goes well

carl_the_sniper wrote: God damn it One of these threads every week.

its good to let it out tho

Pariel wrote: You are the first person I know to use "flame" in a non-internet context. But I feel ya bro. That sucks.

my entire life has sucked

moving out is when it starts getting better

1. Never come to this place for sympathy, you'll get the opposite.
2. Even if you're not looking for sympathy, you'll only get flamed for posting threads like this.
3. Less than 25% of the viewers of this thread will even read your post (See: "tl;dr")

• Don't apologize for flaming bland; regardless of how long he's been here, he still acts like a 4 year old (some members can pull it off as humorous, bland just comes off as idiotic).
• I feel you on the city vs. country thing. I feel so out of place just driving one county over where there are farms and such, and where the only people you see are white. I could never leave the city/urban area.
• Again, that sucks about your parents. Like Yomillio said, I can't imagine what it'd be like noting having a good relationship with my parents.

I hear you, loss is apart of life that is always painful and never quickly or easily overcome. But I am going to tell you this, you have to confront and work through your grief that comes with all changes in life, relationships, change in location, moving on to the next stage of life. All have a component of loss and need attention.

If you feel that you need an outlet, you may want to look into an MFT therapist.

Skillet42565 wrote: sporx wrote: i think that we've all hit something similar in our lives. i don't hate you as a forumer yet... but seriously man, don't try so hard. a lot of us are going through drama and transitions in our life because a lot of us are around the same age. we can relate to a lot and we've become kinda close on here. the only way to be accepted to just have an open mind and be yourself. What Sporx is saying is... we don't care about your transitions in life, quit bawwing before you get guested. Also, Free Bland!

Don't speak for someone else

Just because you're afraid to confront the sources of pain, loss and frustration in your life, dosn't meen that those who confront them should be held in low esteem. If his "Being real" causes you to examine your self, you can use the machismo, don't care defence mechanism to shrug it off and continue without spendig time in self reflection. You can do what you want. However, you don't need to post about it. It's disrespectful, shallow and not helpful to anyone, including your self.

i didnt make this for sympathy i can hold my own just fine, Skillet, u obviously dont know what its like due to your borderline a-hole response, but i figured some of you had little to no heart going into this, so i expected some hating.

even though bland was a jerk, i think i gave him a little too much hell