i am sorry

I'll start off saying that I am sorry to all those I may have offended, upset, and/or flamed on by me. I know I have made several enemies on this forum, and not too many like me much anymore.

I'm especially sorry for the flaming on b1and imparticular. I hadn't realized he had been on the forums for 5 years seeing how he acted the way he did. Any flaming on me for the flaming I gave him was deserved.

well I guess it's story time then. ( as to my hating 'tude toward so many people)

Towards the end of my Senior year all the way to the beginning of summer I have been going through alot. I think we all know that after graduation you lose many many friends, however you still try to hang out as much as you can 'till you as well as they, part for college.

Well I would not have any time with friends, instead, I was told that I was moving to my grandparents for the entirety of summer to work for them b/c thier business is about to fall due to lack of workers. Naturally I was very upset about this because:

1.) It's 2 hours away from civilization

2.) I dont know anyone or where anything is in the town

3.) its the exact opposite of my lifestyle. I'm from the city. They live in the country. DFW is huge and you can always find something to do with someone. Gatesville is one town, with a main street, tons of country and got old REAL fast.

Part-reason for my "deportation" was due to the fact my family had not liked the way i had been acting.

As a little boy, my mom and dad had always fought over me(divorced when I was less that 1 year old), however my mom fought dirty. Told me how my dad was a loser who would never be anything but a bad father. And the slowly started to gain full possession of me. Finally I hit the age when I realized it was the exact opposite as she had been saying. My dad was the best thing in the world, and my mom won me over with material possessions, not love.

When I figured this out I told my mom I wanted to start visiting my dad more. She agreed, for a while, then started to try to pull me back by flaming on him. Her plan backfired since my eyes were now open, I told my dad this and he said it was ok. when i became 13, I told both mom and dad that I wanted to get a court order to live with my dad. (after I told my mom I wanted to see my dad more, she started to dislike me. say she had a headache when I tried talking to her, and had a new "favorite" child which was my stepbrother).

The trial went the way I wanted and so I was able to live with my dad but, had to visit my mom every other weekend. This went on for 3 years, my mom growing more and more distant. We argued more often and it seemed every time I left her house I was full of hate. This transfered onto my dad and after a few years of it even my father started growing distant.

 Finally I called it quits going to my moms after a huge flaming from her at the front door (bag of clothes still in hand) for no reason what- so-ever (unprovoked) so I told her to "have a merry effin christmas" and drove back to my dads. (that was last christmas) I havent seen her since graduation.

due to the years of fights and flames I have become a very negative person. I am trying to get better at it (started this summer)

Today will be the first day I go back to my dads house, I'm crossing my fingers it goes well

 

 

 

 

carl_the_sniper wrote: God damn it One of these threads every week.

its good to let it out tho

Who takes the internet seriously anyway...

bravecoward wrote: everybody makes this thread sometime.carl i think you've made this thread too once if i remember right

Yes of course.

Pariel wrote: You are the first person I know to use "flame" in a non-internet context. But I feel ya bro. That sucks.

my entire life has sucked

moving out is when it starts getting better

Just puttin' this out there:

If you treat people the same way that your parents treated you/you treated your parents, you will never have a good relationship.

I dated a girl who had the same thing going on for over a year, and she's only gotten shallower since then.

You have to be willing to work at relationships. I know for sure she never learned that from her parents. She just learned to blame everyone else.

I don't know you well enough to say if that any of that applies to you, but I hope it helps.

Breh No Worries

Good luck.

i think that we've all hit something similar in our lives.

i don't hate you as a forumer yet... but seriously man, don't try so hard. a lot of us are going through drama and transitions in our life because a lot of us are around the same age. we can relate to a lot and we've become kinda close on here. the only way to be accepted to just have an open mind and be yourself.

No one cares Ace...sorry.