Have you ever?

Drink tea.

Pate wrote: www.livejournal.com

blogspot is better, has a better community. Its more college aged. Thanks for the suggestion though.

My girlfriend and I are starting to think I'm slipping into a depression. I'm still of the mind that depression doesn't exist but all the tests I've take say that I'm moderate....But yeah, I know what you mean.


Oh and, why must people be so crappy to each other. He shouldn't have had to put "start the flames" at the end of that...

"Part Of Me"

Part of me won’t go away
Everyday reminded how much I hate it
Weighted against the consequences
Can’t live without it so it’s senseless
Wanna cut it out of my soul
And just live with a gaping hole
Take control of my life
And wash out all the burnt taste
I made the problems in the first place
Hang my head low ‘cause it’s part of me
Ya hardly see right next to the heart of me
Heard of me the routine scar
New cuts cover where the old ones are
And now I’m sick of this
I can’t stand the sandpaper thoughts that grade on my sanity
I rather not even be then the man that’s staring in the mirror through me

[Pre chorus]
Cut myself free willingly
Sstop just what’s killing me [x4]

I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me

Freedom can be frightening if you've never felt it
Once it’s been dealt with you feel like you’ve been touched by something angelic
And then melted down into a pool of peace
Cease to be the animal you used to be
Remove the broken parts you know were wrong
And feel the karma when the problem’s all gone
And then you start to see another piece of yourself that you can’t let be
Memories of the last fight to free yourself
Take it to the depths of the bottom of the well
And now you know you can choose to lose the part in your heart
Where your insides bruised
You can live if you’re willing to
Put a stop to just what’s killing you

[Pre chorus x4]

[Chorus]

(Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams away silently
This part of me won’t go away, part of me won’t go away
Everywhere I look around I see how everyone aught to be
Every time I see myself I see there’s always something wrong with me)

[Chorus x2]
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside, swallowing me [x2]

God, I have, it sucks, wishing you could feel something, anything...

Edited by BARREL BREAK - 24 April 2006 at 12:51am

Not that it pertains to your situation, but it popped into my head when i read the title.

"Have You Ever"

Falling, I'm falling
Have you ever walked through a room
But it was more like the room passed around you
Like there was a leash around your neck that pulled you through
Have you ever been at someplace
Recognizing everybody's face
Until you realized that there was no one there you knew
Well I know
Some days, my soul's confined and out of mind
Sleep forever
Some days, I'm so outshined and out of time
Have you ever
Falling, I'm falling
Have you ever buried your face in your hands
Cause no one around you understands
Or has the slightest idea what it is that makes you be
Have you ever felt like there was more
Like someone else was keeping score
And what could make you whole was simply out of reach
Well I know
Someday I'll try again and not pretend
This time forever
Someday I'll get it straight but not today
Have you ever
Falling, I'm falling
Some days, my soul's confined and out of mind
Sleep forever
Some days, my darkest friend is me again
Have you ever
Someday I'll try again and not pretend
This time forever
Someday I'll get it straight but not today
Have you ever
**Change in tempo**
When the truth walks away
Everybody stays
Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay
So if you walk away
Who is gonna stay
Cause I'd like to think the world is a better place
When the truth walks away
Everybody stays
Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay
So if you walk away
Who is gonna stay
Cause I'd like to make the world be a better place
When the truth walks away
Everybody stays
Cause the truth about the world is that crime does pay
So if you walk away
Who is gonna stay
Cause I'd like to think the world is a better place
I'd like to leave the world as a better place
I'd like to think the world

when i feel crappy i go listen to the offspring. after that i forget why i felt bad and normally have the balls then to form a solution, no matter what it takes.


Edited by High Voltage - 24 April 2006 at 1:03am

Indie sux, Hard-line sux, Emo sux, you suck!

choopie911 wrote:

Its not really being sad so I dont feel much like crying. Its like I said, its just really empty. Thanks for the beautiful picture though.

Yeah it sucks. You just dont have any emotions to display, but you want to.

White o Light wrote: Have you ever felt so bad you dont feel emotions? Its not being angry, its not being sad... you just feel empty. It feels like your not really alive. It is such a strange feeling.Start the flames.

someone seems lonely.
I suggest that you rent a good porn, grab a bag of
cheetos, and sit naked in a bean bag.

That always makes me feel better.